I wanted to understand you than anyone. Because I wanted you to know me than anyone. But I have met me of the darkness that I was afraid of most again. You meet me who turned ugly last sometime and will be lost in people.
My life is the repetition of the eternity. My cousin committed suicide in desperation over repetition of the eternity in the winter before last.
If you are common somebody of me, as for me, I will be given common love by you. But familiar despair drives me who was too dear to demon's night.
I photographed this picture to 1998-2002 and edited it in 2002.
The source of the picture is a S-VHS video and a DV.
This is a work of the non-linear editing with the PC which I tried to The fourth.
It's the digital video work which it made next to "Brazil".
In addition, with the picture of this work as a source, I made Music Video. It is "Perspective of life".
This work has not been shown at all so far.
However, another version that I replaced a sound track in another music was shown my streaming site of the past.
It's "Point de vue".
With this work, the sound track of this picture completely synchronizes with the action. But "Point de vue" is not so.
And this work edited it newly recently to upload it in YouTube. "Point de vue" does not add to totally new editing.
Therefore it was a picture same as "Point de vue" when the picture of this work was completed in 2002.
In "Brazil", I used technology to edit a picture by layer structure with Adobe After Effects for the first time.
I pushed the methodology with this work more. I used many Adobe After Effects in most sequences overall.
Moreover, I take in the still image which I photographed from various books, and this work consists of the designs such as the figures which I made with Adobe Illustrator.
There are more animations which consisted of a still image than the picture which I photographed by a location with this work.
I made this work being aware of the addition of the theme to the picture in earnest.
I suffered from disease of a mental disease and was hospitalized in the past when I made this work.
I came to turn a sense to the thing that there was not interest at all for me till now in a closed ward.
It was to sense soil and a plant, light and wind, one's breathing bodily.
It was only to take a human being till then that I was interested.
For example, "Brazil" or "For wedding ceremonies".
But, as for me, I came to think about the phenomenon of the things which human beings were not usually conscious of by suffering from disease of a mental disorder.
Even if I am not conscious, the phenomenon of things surrounds me in the world where I live.
The phenomenon of things may be unrelated at a glance to my feelings.
However, the phenomenon of things shows to me another world that I knew it so far when I am conscious.
The phenomenon of things changes my viewpoint. I can widen consciousness of delimited me by an everyday suffering thereby.
I wanted to express that I thought like that as a picture.
Therefore, as for me, I made this after having been discharged from the hospital.
It was necessary for me to make this. To live.
This picture uses an expression method such as early music PV in 1990's.
Perhaps The reason is that it is the most familiar expression for me.
Present I want to make the same theme with different expression.
This picture made a F4V file to upload it in YouTube with Adobe Media Encoder CS4.
Therefore this work is higher-resolution than the already sent upload work.
